Hey firefighter4u, been there done that not as simple as it seems but you can go ahead get married then ruin more lives after divorcing then bend to more peer pressure and get married again then get divorced for the second time maybe even file bankruptcy then come out of the closet and tell your family then realize they will still love you unconditionally and they will say they knew anyway and you'll be as close as you have ever been with your family except you will have two ex wives that are remarried and still love you for who you are and you will wonder why the hell you didn't come out sooner and instead of looking at the poster of the Z28 camaro convertible you'd be driving it! lol
Good luck and God bless with YOUR decission I'm very masculine, beard and all lol, but your true loved ones, even if in denial, seem to always have known you were gay anyway.
I didn't mention having kids during the marriages....but that happens too and they , at a 99% rate, will still love the parent that comes out. Hell only 95% of the straight families keep the love of their children after a divorce lol
Don in Evansville, Indiana