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Charlamane

total posts: 8
Posted on Fri, Jul 17, 2009 02:45

Well, here I sit with the T.V. going and Star Trek "Enterprise" is on. It's an old episode so I can type and listen at the same time as I know the story ... I've seen it several times. I still like watching Star Trek though. Some of the stories are quite good. "Deep Space Nine " is on next although I don't have the volume turned up very loud. Part of my job is security for the hotel where I live and when I'm home my door is always open so I can hear if any commotion is taking place in the hall. There are only rooms for rent on the top floor so when my doors open I can hear anybody entering the floor and my dog growls when ever there's a noise. It's 12:05am and it is supposed to be quiet and it is quiet as I can also hear the thump, thump of the band downstairs in the bar. I can also hear the people who go outside to have a smoke (it's illegal to smoke inside a bar in British Columbia). I'll be up untill after the bar closes at 2:00am and for awhile after that. I take the dog out around 3:00am so he can have a little run and do his thing. I usually make it to bed by 4:00am and my day starts relatively early(7:30AM) by cleaning up the mess in the bar. The reason I decided to write these few lines is partly because of bordom and partly so I can talk to somebody. I don't have any close friends and by close I mean "arm around the waist,hand in hand,pat on the bum,kiss on the mouth close". I imagine that if your reading this you know what I mean, you're all looking for the same thing after all. To have a shoulder you can lay your head on, a warm body to cuddle up to while watching T.V. or laying in bed. It's hard to be romanticly intimate when your by yourself (it's just not the same).... (no matter how hard you try). So we turn to the services like this site in hopes of meeting someone, for me it all started back in the mid nineties when I built my first computer that had internet capabilities. When ever I got the chance and was alone I haunted the gay personals sites. In 13 years I have met one guy from these sites. We saw each other a few times although his living in another city presented a bit of a problem (I had no transportation) and he I found out had a wife. That was alright I guess but it was a bit on the awkward (I can't remember how to spell that word and the check spelling thingy doesn't work). Let's just say the situation had a few surface scratches from the start.It still was alright though, I didn't mind, yet! Then came the suprise that .... well it was different, a new experience for me. I had never come across this before and I grew up in a town where all the farmers grew milk cows (50's & 60's)in New Brunswick, Until I was 7 years old they still used steam locomotives to haul trains. Dam things used to scare the crap out of me every time they started to move. The main drive wheels were 6' tall. I was not prepared for this situation, even though I had lived in Toronto for several years and seen and done some strange things. I was not ready for a guy who liked to wear girls clothes. Don't get me wrong, I have known many guys that wore dresses, all the time and some of them were really beautiful girls "really yummy". Some guys shouldn't wear girls clothes and the guy who stood in front of me that day was one of the ones who shouldn't, especially bright red,,, with frills ... and stiletto shoes. Scart the hell outta me, just like that train when I was 5 or 6 years old....did I mention the black fishnet stockings? Since that time I have met a couple of guys but only to say hello and I have had conversations with a few more via the instant services, the last being a young guy in Belgium. I haven't heard from him in a long time. I miss those little messages saying "naked here" popping up on my screen late at night, his morning because of the time difference. Well, here I am years later still looking at profiles. Still hoping that I'll get an email saying that is interested in me and would like to meet and my heart will flutter in my chest because is only 20 years old and likes older guys. I can see it now, we'll meet and he will be absolutely georgeous and then I'll turn into a simpering 14 year old the first time a pretty girl sidles up to him.Intelligent thought and judgement shall quickly fall by the wayside. Polite conversation shall also disappear. God I'll be lucky if I don't look at him, stare stupidly and say "DUH" and to cap it all off I know for a fact that is in this town and he's looking for a guy just like me, I've seen it in the personals. Now if I just knew who he was, eveybody knows me here, I'm not hard to find.....I can see it now. I'll be working outside and a stranger will walk up and say,"I'm ______, glad to meet you. I'll look at him and he'll be absolutely georgeous, tall, dark and every ounce of good sense I've ever acquired will flood out of my body and I'll stare at him and say,"DUH". Good night fellas it's time to take my dog out for a pee. It's been nice talking to you, hope we can do it again sometime. I want all of you to give yourselves a big hug for me, Toodles!


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Charlamane

total posts: 8
Posted on Sun, May 09, 2010 07:10

Spring is in the air and love is on my mind here in beautifull british columbia, thanx for reading my musings. perhaps I should put this stuff in my book.Jon Armstrong


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Luver44

total posts: 2
Posted on Wed, May 05, 2010 15:52

Hey! We should really chat sometime! We have sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much in common! Toodles!


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Luver44

total posts: 2
Posted on Wed, May 05, 2010 15:51

Omg! I think we are the perfect match! We have sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much in common! Hope you don't mind being a cougar! Toodles, we should really chat sometime!


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Charlamane

total posts: 8
Posted on Wed, Aug 05, 2009 23:38

Either this is really, really good and everyone has been struck dumb by it's brilliance or really, really bad and everyone is to sick to finish reading it. Maybe I should have made a lot of mistakes cause where I live if you make mistakes someone always has something to say, even if it's only to say "HA HAA, you f@$#%d up." So come on guys, I know you are reading it cause the site tells me so. I know you can all write, you all have profiles and it would be nice to hear some comments. They say there are thousands of you out there the odds of everyone to not have something to say is very remote so limber up those pinkies and start hittin those keys.


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